you people
i don’t know what to say to you
you expect some sort of
explanation
or
justification
or insight concerning my state
of mind
at the time
you can talk all you want
about cries for help
or
brain chemistry or
family history
and some things being overdetermined
but i swear
to christ
some days i am just
disgusted with you
disgusted with myself
disgusted
with this world…
ps:
but, honestly
mostly with you