that awkward thing

that awkward thing where
the woman who calls you her husband
reaches for your hand and tries to interlace fingers
she never does that – not in all these years
and it’s like somebody just tried to hand you a spider or
a bucket of something repulsive
and you pull your hand away and shudder


was that out loud?

also, you’re in the same mall
where you strolled with your lover
just days ago
fingers interlaced

where you had your picture taken in one of those
coin-op photo booth things with the curtain

you still carry the pictures
of smiles and passionate kisses
in your wallet

and you’re coming upon the photo booth now

and the woman who calls you her husband
suddenly gets this great idea